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What’s Up? Is this . . . me?

Me a littleOkay, granted this is a personal post

I wanted to let my friends know what was happening . . .

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I’m down 60 pounds with 73 pounds to go.

This being said, all sorts of stuff is hitting the fan.

downloadFirst, same old problem of getting my 80 grams of protein down. But I have found a GNC product that I am able to tolerate pretty well, GNC Lean Shake. It tastes at the very least, tolerable and it’s chuck full of protein with only 170 calories.

Now, I have been saved by my friend in my Gastric Bypass Support group, she has given me a truck load of clothes that I can wear since I have gone from a size 30 to 18.  My other clothes were hanging off of me.  With the new and stylish clothes, I have a renewed a fashion interest.

I have begun to put on wear contact and put on makeup everyday and dress in her beautiful donated clothes.  When I get to little for them.  I will donate them to another person in my group.

However, with that being said, I have now come to the ugly part of this process.

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fat . . .

and never going to be able to lose that image.

The one, I still see in the mirror.

That particular feeling sucks because you put your body through hell to make yourself healthy, but your MIND is still unhealthy.

body_imageNot only is your mind saying, “NEVER will you be healthy, pretty, happy with yourself.”

It still wants all the things that your body will never be able to tolerate!  For instance, I will never be able to tolerate sitting on a Sunday afternoon watching NFL Football and enjoy beer and my famous ‘Death by Nachos’!

OR Drink a gallon of coffee before going to work to wake me up after writing all night. (That was the only way I wrote Seditious and Ransom  . . . coffee infusions)

OR tolerate making my wonderful homemade spaghetti or chocolate chip cookies.

Never on a snowy day will I be able to make my infamous ‘Sizzlin’ Hot Chocolate’ with chunks of melted Swiss chocolate.

Good Choice, Bad Choice Road Sign with blue sky and clouds.

Either stick with the program or get sick.  NO more if’s and or but’s!

weightlossNO more deals I made with myself that I would diet tomorrow, if I cheated today. No . . . nothing . . . just compliance and that’s FINAL! I will check in every once in while with you all and let you know how it is going.

With all my bitching, I do thank God that I had this done.  I’m no longer diabetic.

I no longer am sure that I was going to have a heart attack before I was 60.

I can now live without the fear or dying of being morbidly obese.

Take care and lots of love to you all. I thank God for my friends and fellow bloggers who are my support everyday.

I will be there for you too. I support you and care about my friends.  This video is for you my loves.

HAPPY SUNDAY!!!

PEACE AND LOVE TO YOU ALL!!!

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17 responses

  1. Emily congratulations and as a female can understand totally about self image issues, they are more traumatic for some than the actual surgery recovery. Good luck in future sounds like your course is set firmly and using that as your anchor you will prevail taking it one day at a time, am glad for your sake diabetes is now an ugly memory and have to tell you those mentions of your former favorite foods made me hungry on a lighter note but know better than to indulge! :-)

    September 29, 2013 at 3:01 pm

    • Thank you for your support Jackie! It’s a battle and I can’t retreat. Just like all the people that battle weight gain. It is not for the faint of heart, that’s for sure. My self-image is going to have to catch up to my body and that… will take some work! Lots of love, Emily

      September 29, 2013 at 3:41 pm

  2. “I am happy for you if you are happy about yourself” … That is what friends are for …

    September 29, 2013 at 3:02 pm

    • Thank you so much for your support and comment! I really do depend on seeing you and my other blogging friends every day it really helps! Lots of love, Emily

      September 29, 2013 at 3:43 pm

  3. You always pick the best music to go with your posts! Wish you a spectacular day!

    September 29, 2013 at 3:09 pm

    • I truly try! I love music videos – a child of MTV for sure! Lots of love, Emily

      September 29, 2013 at 3:41 pm

  4. Jueseppi B.

    Reblogged this on The ObamaCrat™.

    September 29, 2013 at 3:17 pm

  5. Eleven years later and still dumping. I’ve never heard of 80 grams of protein before. 60 is the standard around these parts. At this point, I make it to about 40 to 50 and i just can’t eat any more than that. My daughter is law is about where you are, but seems to be doing okay. Eggs. Lots of eggs. And coffee!!

    September 29, 2013 at 3:55 pm

    • Yeah, I have heard that in group that it used to be 60. They changed it! Eggs are okay if cooked a certain way! Lots of love to you and to your daughter-in-law! Emily

      September 29, 2013 at 4:05 pm

  6. Congratulations. What you’ve achieved is fantastic. I hope you go on to achieve your goal. You’ll be a great example for some people who doubt it can be done. xxx Huge Hugs xxx

    September 29, 2013 at 6:26 pm

  7. Anonymous

    I am thinking about having the lap band but I am scared. So good for you! I wish you much success.

    September 29, 2013 at 7:59 pm

  8. I was thinking about having the lap band surgery. But I’m scared!! Good for you and continued success.

    September 29, 2013 at 8:01 pm

  9. Beautiful!

    September 29, 2013 at 8:03 pm

  10. Good for you taking steps to reclaim your health. Keep up the good work. You’re beautiful, Emily! Take care and have a great week!

    September 29, 2013 at 9:27 pm

  11. I can’t wait to see you next year, Emily!

    I salute your courage in bettering your health :)

    September 30, 2013 at 7:00 pm

    • THANK YOU DAVEN!!! I can’t wait to see you too! I’m going to tackle you with a HUMONGOUS BEAR HUG!!! You have been such a support! Lots of love, Emily

      September 30, 2013 at 7:02 pm

  12. It sounds like you have set your course. When I was dieting, by accident, I discovered a neat trick that helped my mind really see the new me. I would be approaching a store and glimpse a reflection in the glass. It would surprise me when I realized that slimmer person was me. It also helped me to see myself as other people do.
    Stay beautiful my friend:)

    October 4, 2013 at 12:22 pm

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